Thursday, August 17, 2017

The "F" Word

"The first to apologize is the bravest. The first to forgive is the strongest. The first to forget is the happiest" ~Unknown

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

My Own Garden of Gethsemane

Crying, pleading, begging with God to let this immense time of darkness either pass or turn into beautiful and healing light, I found myself in so much emotional and physical anguish as I neared the final court date that would declare my husband and I officially divorced. In no way could I ever compare my hurt and desperation to Jesus while he was in the garden of Gethsemane prior to His own betrayal that would lead to His death, but I surely knew I was in my own garden of suffering.

Monday, June 26, 2017

5 Perks of Taking the High Road

Society is full of bad advice-really bad advice. Society is self-serving. Society is quick to act. Quick to anger. Quick to seek revenge. Society doesn't seek God first when confronted with adverse situations-especially when it comes to conflict. As a woman who has lived through utter destruction because of others' actions, I can testify that taking the high road isn’t easy. It's not easy at all. I actually found it quite difficult at times to keep my mouth shut and not go all spidermonkey on the ones who hurt me, but, in the end, it's so worth it. I get to remain free.

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

I Need You

(written March 2017)

Father, my circumstances look impossible. They look so final. Divorce settlement papers have been signed. Our dream home is about to be on the market and I'm pretty much having Togo through this process alone. He has moved in with the other woman and her 2 kids months ago and has officially changed his address. Father, where have my prayers gone every day for the past 6 months? Have you not heard the desperation in my constant cries for my husband and our marriage? I am willing to work through the hurt even though starting over seems easier and I have realized looking back over this marriage, I deserved more. Much more, but I promised forever-through better or worse (and this is BEYOND WORSE). I even realized that I've rewritten my expectations for love, marriage and my husband-and I never should have had to do that, but I am willing, Lord, to move forward, forgive and reconcile it all with him. Have you not seen the floods of tears that have fallen from my eyes? Father, where are you? Please answer me.

Tuesday, May 30, 2017

Oh Baby, Talk about a Mercy in Disguise

"Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise"
"Blessings" by Laura Story